1. |
Tool Belt Down
07:18
|
|||
she brings her tool belt down from the highest coma
the pointiest cloud
drags it down like a parachute from a tree
like all day rain
like wet shoes
she brings the Named ladder down last
wiping crosses from her eyes
blowing knows into the flag
the pointiest dreams
wild slugs on a team
nation: gun
made of money
(pooh and turned honey)
(made of) glut and fuck me
he brings his wet pussy down from ivory towers
like storm rain in a house gutter
cums crashed planes like deployed troops
money shot on afghan land
she brings her ideology by a leash
drags it around like fog
like the lightest mountain (those only at the ‘top’ can climb)
jog harder
lift those sopping wet socks
with holes
you’re all day rain
you’re (shackle-grade) lead shoes
he brings the iron
she brings the toast
they break the hour glass and eat it
like all day lunch
the pointless-est cloud
drags ya down like a fireman from a tree
like all morning shakes
he gets up gun first
works backwards, draws straight lines with two right feet
she dances in crosses and squares
they weave pipe dreams (and bombs)
in and out of her
he steps on her feet
he makes them smaller and sells them to tourists
they dance for each other
the stage half collapsed
eaten and full of itself
tool belt down
aisle pointless
six black sites with mops Now
get your shoes wet
bring the ladder down
wipe your fee(a)t of muddied dreams
they bring their tool belt and horse down last
the dullest of butter knives
the barely a drizzle (annoying rain(reign) in your face)
the pointiest cloud
you drag it around like someone else’s balloon you found stuck in ‘your’ tree
she congratulates you and hands you summer
he charges you for it and calls it ‘vacation/holiday’
pay with your broken
pocket guitar punching down nails
pick something to climb and eat fruit from
before they both kill themselves
and we realize they never existed
it was just a downpour in a dream
it was just time
blowing kisses into a rag
it was only life
dragged down like wet toilet paper from a front yard tree
“tool belt down”
|
||||
2. |
Why Can't I Dream
03:32
|
|||
My woke trances still my eyes
make dumb my fluid thoughts
arrested in liquid
a floating orb in black water
a flicker of azul
and numbing like cold
that is warm and blanketless
but all around me
might I peel them open?
but the weight is light and pressing
and there’s mud
it’s sediment that mushes high-in-bio-nutrient-muddy-in-my-toes
suspended
all legs and heads floating
water is air
so I breathe in deep gulps and become my fish
I am afraid of the black, still open-shut open-shut of the abyss
I don’t have to turn for bedsores
but I understand nothing
nothing chases me
and I can’t recall the faces
I am standing in jelly-muck child-hood-river-bed-made-of-fish-shit-and-dead-leaves
in still water
it slides around my ankles sucking through my toes oozes the richness
my feet clap out to walk
Is there a rock at the bottom of the ocean
is there sky
is there an answer there?
does the behemoth swim the deep and make a sound if there’s no human there to hear it?
eardrums on vacation
still yourselves with science
still yourselves.
still yourselves with science
the ocean thinks it’s sleeping
still yourselves.
still yourselves with science
the immediacy is in the people who are the earth and planets
|
||||
3. |
The Cycle Of
03:28
|
|||
J:
The cycle of
people counting on you
expecting you at nine am
disappointing them by ten
stabbings on the train
or pushings on the tracks
how has it avoided me thus far?
why are we doing here?
how am I possible?
B:
pick the mug out of a line of sinks
miles of hidden bosses
what cost costs us
can’t dig up missing
try and find lost
J:
The cycle of
finding someone for you
to make your life a lucid dream
to keep you from seeing
that you were being raped
and you weren’t supposed to know
how have we avoided it thus far?
why are we doing here?
how am I possible?
B:
the landlord lawyers
hands up
trope first
money slow where i can see ‘em
the loft swings
strange fruit
high suit
trickling down the gutter
like discount blood
J:
The cycle of
loosing pieces of you
they’re bought they’re sold they’re shared they’re spent
until you’re nothing at the end
drownings in the lake
or jumpings on the tracks
how has it avoided me thus far?
why are we doing here?
how am I possible?
B:
you stand out in traffic
(clean) orange cone jammed in your arm
learn the language
don’t speak it
burn(/bomb) the billboard
don’t keep it
|
||||
4. |
Tulip Water
04:01
|
|||
B:
the countryside in me was lonely and idealistic
abandoned rollercoasters stretching out for miles
empty barns and high horses
hearses towing (broke-down) hearses and smart hurt(s)
verses vs verses in gun font
numb blunted off dull stunted sullen presumptions
J: (in tandem w/B):
The things i’m told to fear:
Sex
Men
Disease
Having no job
Bleaching my hair
not birthing before my body is dry
god
sickness
death
jealousy
war
pride
cars on the road
aloneness
toxic overdosing
holes in my head
violent acts
strangers
addiction
alternative religion
alleyways
identity theft
loss of my parents
low income housing
loss of things of value
nursing homes
cesarian section
walking around with a diamond on
self serving behavior
talking too loud
being in a big crowd
getting abducted
getting arrested
getting caught outside too late
sudden loss of faith
speaking against the state
debt
loans
authority
drones
not making enough
psychosis
infection
hurting my reputation
growing too old
burning the house down
mercury
tectonic subduction
ingestion of poison
carbon monoxide poison
polyvinyl chloride poison
liver failure
becoming a burden
forgetting your family
forgetting the stove’s on
burning the house down
B: (in tandem w/ J):
assume was uniform, rehearsal was for real, prop sawed off applause gun, phantom sadness, i feel it even when it’s not there, the mess we’ve made, and the broom to sweep us off our feet,
sterile get-up, hygienic slap, bash-ful futility belt, saggy breathe,
i attempt to let my hog-tied tongue catch the buffet of words always running out of an open field and into a thicket of open arms and upturned spoons like a tight forest is dark before dusk, like a meal in a covered plate, i wait, for the woods that sit along the edge of our game like coaches and players, to call me in or throw me out
sick get-up
B:
i folded this letter into a paper airplane, a brick from a building, (a window made of bottle glass), a spitball on fire, a siren to slow down head traffic and echo on through the streets the blood was red tape shit shovel and formal workboot
the sewer in me was ball room and lonely
J:
we feel these things and are born by them
these stories we tell ourselves
are all the same
floating above body
grasping the edge of reason
reaching for the shadow
we know we fear this moment
|
||||
5. |
||||
abbreviate outerspace
OS
operating system
bombs remind us of freedom
these scrolls
at battle with language
the highest roof is the only one talking
what language do they speak
on your behalf
industrial thing
abbreviate outerspace
OS
operating system
bombs remind us of freedom
puking knives
stabbing stars in the back (before they ever burned)
choking planets out, jacking their rings
putting them in holding cells, black Op-erating theatre
hyper-meta-solipcistic, deep space none
bombs remind us of freedom
what’s fleeting bursting in air
the bombs bursting in air
making yourself
language gag
violence coming out your mouth, sing your allegiance
genocide of ourselves
this abandon
abbreviate outerspace
OS
operating system
bombs remind us of freedom
mascots melee in the coloseau
language attends the masquerade
language covers its tracks
trend-genocide & death-sports Sytlin’ on you
upper-management blockades to the bank
(throwing your party-favors at the genocide)
square-box toxic theatre
bombs remind us of freedom
bombs remind us of freedom
making money off of death
each firework bought and sold
(creating borders purchases violence
violence buys borders)
lump culture
it’s not a tumor
we are the cancer
where did you come from
language is sexuality
polarity as weapon
competition between poles
kick in the goal
taught to rape and pillage on the 20 yard line
poor kid on a stormy beach
(intercom gloating)
|
||||
6. |
No Clothes on the Warden
04:42
|
|||
B&J:
(b)
romanticizing itself
no pretty dresses on kings
no butterscotch on burnt toast
no hot tub of paint
no more imagine
no splashing in revolution minutia
permit for feeling
permit for staying put
(j)
From dirt to dollar Energy bound
Degradation through trickle down
Nutrition trees exchange everything but nutrient
Eating The Butcher
The Bank Teller
The Sign-Spinner
We need tickets to get in the door
We need tickets to get out of the parking lot
(b)
no parking tickets on pretty kings
no olive branch hanging from a bride
big swinging clock
ordering around shadows
no shade in the alone
carsick on preludes and promised hilltops
no funeral for the overkill
all road kill in the inner State
(j)
We are all climbing on broken skin.
Going down the drain
where went to see up rails
to the down who were left
tiny spots on a manufactured map
Inventors invented time.
but it spun before that
(b)
no magic carpet over inherited dirt
no swimmable mud
no more beach chair at an idea’s grave
no glowing dead rock or star
romanticize sadness
no more warm campfires around united in struggle
we hurt the same song
sing it from your pillow feathers and road-tar lungs
no romantic glue
no ceiling-tile nostalgic
horse for sitting still
sing it from outside your own prison walls
no clothes on the warden
(j)
Congratulations on your paper juggling skills
They are really coming along
while The Carrier carries for you
The Cleaner cleans
The Driver drives
They eat The Cooker’s cook and have to ask for a spoon.
Human god power
lost in commerce
(b)
romanticizing itself
sponge of many smells
grass of plenty greener
gangrene camo on the always-solider
bootlicker of every moon
every song is an attempt
sing it from outside your own prison walls
no clothes on the warden
no more equal
|
||||
7. |
Speakhunter
05:13
|
|||
foraging in the banal
scorched earth hunting
in the pay now
and later
as has it’s come to be
and culture makes and kills me, while
porridging through the next aisle
i’ll detourn, take form and hot tail
i’ll pile high miles upon trial of false scale
broken fish off leash and the chain and chic kitsch
just out on bail
off the chopping block
still chasing its tail
Auction dreams up to idols,(up to Up), fresh-paint gods, sold retail
crampin in the fatale
ensnared in the right now
caring about about
pillaging in the banal
one love bunting
in the tri-angle
too-hot-a-tubbin’ in a freak out
everything come down to breath out
everything come down to breath out
live is live here or there now
all crickets in the cr-cr-crowd
copyrighted and self endowed
make proud hog and white tree house
dogged tongue over rung climbing mound
drown-ed doused in do-zy dose and then et out
hot clap proud from the still without
drink quiet and letting it out
the only chair in a very big crowd
dragged out by its legs
screaming in vowels
brushed from the mouth up
ducted in defunct guts and cut loud
downed in how, how the fuck, what now
speak from your guts up and then out
out out out, out out out , out out out
sunbathing on the edge of the drought
big baggy fad on the banal
no sign of rage in the talk of the town
ankles deep in the bequeath in paid sneakers ad sheets to sleep and pass out
all i see is cracks within the cracks, systematic traps within class, our face to the glass,
blurred out, worked up, waiting for someone else to react, turn their shirt out
church thrown on laps
redact life
begin ing, be fore begun,
been gun
main trunk
to Wholesale
every part
let us tear through the veil
worth more before we realize we’re for sale
digi- life raft, floating PC, and self-tale
words as arrow , cursor
have it out
here and now
Sacred cow
way past making a sound
informal-ity , commit to busy, drizzled
down a shitty refrain ,
Old pain, metastasized game, retain trained, new day, evolved same,
all blame, Not here, not here , (not here) Not now
Still towing the same noun ,
frown plowing each morning down
swallowed enough to sort it out
Piles upon piles upon
(stacks up (against)
You can count on the banks to always rebound
the butter on the bread is not spread out
Paper Shank, sharp tongue, blood in, teeth out
filing the blade down to breath out
filing a blade down to (just) breath out
repeat easy, speak easel, bob in the sauce and out to luncheonette, we’re all grilled cheese, investigated and dipping in each other’s loss, spice black out, early dish caught the swarm, stain it all, up in the mourn, always up, even in the mourn, loss of people is lost form and speak, easy and knowing one’s norm, always only what one’s when’s around, always only the speak of one’s so-to-speak ‘town’ , where you get your words from is your what’s around, same goes for coming to in chains and dogma, and refrain
you know the side of the bed
(piles of un-dial-ed-in free-styles) and when
then comes to now
the nightmare you can’t forget about
Reach out , reach out , (reach out) retreat frown
deflect greed, un-plant flip-flops, plastic trunks, plastic tusks
elephant us, dial readjust, tough spastic, hit hard on the 1’s and the throughs
shoes for grave-dancing, should’ve been born a shovel, or a rubber tire on fire, we all wear as shirt, always getting, always for getting,
next window, how hard , what can (find) us find to throw through it
through flames
through ridiculous rules
and fake sides
take culture
take 5
the prepared supper for hit deck in swam suit n always drown mute if one shuns or just bunts instead of home-run, stuck shunned by sports wand n corporate wants, Fran- size me up, give me a dad, had from the piss pot to not, golden arch, super wise n crappy meal, how’s the tether? give gas mask n umbrella, fuck shelter, need shelter, fuck seller, need seller , how to stay in this- here shell sir, all belt, no pants sir , no sir
iwon’tsir
FukSir
it’s all must and stern on a quicksandwich of who’s turn
fall light
burn slow
show it all
show know
hold no
hold nothing
and all
at once
speakhun-t -er
|
||||
8. |
Woe Rodeo
05:42
|
|||
B:
combing back the farmland with a foster family’s bulldozer pen, with a heart shaped spoon, cutting a bald head with cage bird’s teeth, up early skimming an inside-out pool for lining, styling the sadness, a plow dressed down, pharmacological blush, on cheek
clinical cowlick, woe rodeo, not your first farm bought
J:
the fissures grow
until you cannot leap them anymore
when the only way is forward
and left behind
but you fix your hat
make sure your shirt’s on straight before dying
B:
back to the salt mines
the wound of the earth
hopeless make-up songs bump shadow I
finest bulldozer blade to taste
cutting nothing off a sterile field,
infected pepper
mop mornings into lists
J&B:
open your throat and let the oil pour in
it’s in your brain
it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain
it’s in your veins
it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins
open your throat and let the oil pour in
B:
paralyzed bull-pit, pen bicep, shy podium,
cry hot light and sink head in cold and dead sand,
old time, unrealized eventual, flashmob morning,
trench oaths, selling old watches, color-in-the-lines time
combing back the armpit, attempting to climb back up my spine, convention’s bedpost,
the hacksaw and handcuff’s dream
J:
alligator scales weigh your worth
and you dive in after it
did you find it?
it was stolen from you
and you give the flag your first born too
B:
in the king’s bed
clinical dump
prescribed gutters,
down, bloated scapegoat, fed em nothing but can
half in the mass grave
thumb-war children of remote-control parents,
and now parents themselves
B:
combing back the sheets with a mouldboard pen, out of oxen, with a liver-shaped fork, cutting out scars like county road,
we died in the same place every time
almost written down
halfway couch
bereft of life
white smock and pillow mint
pharmacological kiss, in cheek
J:
my oil will get mixed in with yours
when the days have buried us all
i won’t have memory then
but i live with your memory now
B:
full-blown maids to their own enclaves and when-trails
cameo, not your first taste of whiteout
hopeless high-traffic head
in the morning
combing back the armpit
this is all me talking over myself
J&B:
open your throat and let the oil pour in
it’s in your brain
it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain, it’s in your brain
it’s in your veins
it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins, it’s in your veins
open your throat and let the oil pour in
|
||||
9. |
Bad Math (Booze on Ice)
04:51
|
|||
8 hours to work
3 hours to yourself
we make it ourselves
we make it ourselves
8 hours to work
3 hours to yourself
we make it ourselves
we make it ourselves
and wonder
and wonder why
and wonder why we
and wonder why we are
and wonder why we are all sick
bad math
fake happy
dead eyes
|
||||
10. |
||||
B&J:
Please,
safe space
J:
she got away by the rubber of her soul
by the hint of something wrong
by the narrow miss of time
they got away by walking deep, not lonely
after losing friends
who only could be themselves at night
he got away by swimming in the sea
by leaving to be free
still swimming
B&J:
Please,
safe space
B:
crowded fire
everyone trying to put themselves out
use by mouth
the doctored order
eyes like crossed borders
turned away raft in my tears
we’re the no light left in the ash
warm snow floating down a tube tv
sitting on the giant’s eggs
fighting for a seat
force rescue
no one here asked for the ropes
lipsyncing freedom
and back to commercial
B&J:
Please,
safe space
|
Through Flames Portland, Oregon
Through Flames is Brad Hamers & jdaugh
"If there is still one hellish, truly accursed thing in our
time, it is our artistic dallying with forms, instead of being like victims burnt at the stake, signaling through the flames. " Antonin Artaud.
Profile Photo by Adam Johnson
... more
Streaming and Download help
Through Flames recommends:
If you like Through Flames, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp